Well? Not so

"The person who tries to keep everyone happy and always cares for every one is always the most lonely person..strange but true".
I try keeping everyone happy and care for them all the time..but hmm..does the statement apply to me? Ponder and wonder. Unrelated to this, I'm in much confusion currently. The drama I put myself into. Bye bye Facebook again! Until I have cleared all these with myself, I'll definitely be back again. Give me a week of the holidays at least. Sometimes, sleeping all the time is the only way to escape what I'm going through. Different world, most importantly, different story. But you might wonder why Facebook? Cause that's where it all started? And maybe that's where it should stop either. Such a bummer! Such a drainer! Can already feel the  lethargicness of getting over this. Wait for the moment =)


It's time for the holidays yet again..ZzZZz. Perfect timing but yet again, I'll have to bust more initiative in opening the textbook for revision and assignment. It's the time of the semester again, where you'll have cold feet thinking of the finals. I want to travel around! If it's Selangor then be it..I don't mind. Haha. Do not have company only that's why no plans. Grr! Shall let everything fall into place. Me signing out now. Adios!

The part of being..not so me

Howdy readers! Not that I assume that there's anyone reading this after all. Continue reading as the line increases if you want. Sorry if Im being a little blunt. Thats just not the way I usually am. These past few days, I've been minimally connecting to people out there in terms of social networking. Hardly logged into MSN until the wee hours as that would usually be my norm and you could also blame the early nights. Still gotta be the human I am when in classes no? In contrary to that, I've cut all connections from people on Facebook. Seems like the best thing to do because.. just because. It has been 4 days already and I have to admit, it feels weird not going to the Facebook site the 1st thing when I open the web browser. Not having to read what people said, not having the feeling that you're being judged when you post something up, not have to anything at all. Just need some getting use to. It will do me all the good that I need.


Everything is not like a walk in the park anymore. I guess that's how I make things look like for the past few months and also in college. You might be wondering what is my problem now? I do not know. Not the end of the world though. Im just as confused as you are right now. Think of it as the insane person in me who typed all these crap. Should stop ranting on about this. Bet you're somewhat annoyed to even read further. For the record, I didnt forget Christmas. I will be back, one fine day.


I extend my prayers to Japan and many other countries. Devastating. 

Another Side of Me

Blogs and diaries are similar to me. The difference now is that 1 is still 'alive' and the other 1, the habit has died off.

Personally I would prefer diaries as there is not information restriction and no worries of who is going to read it later. Of course it would only be me, myself and I.

Talking about this, it's because I've 3 diaries myself =) The first post dated all the way back in December 2002. The last post ever was the day when I came back from National Service, 8th June 2009. The red one is fully about my National Service life. Yes, all the way from Sabah, I was still writing XD

Well, I love writing but can't find the time anymore to put aside for that. So this bloggie is so much more convenient since I can just type in whatever but like I said, no details! Come to think of it, the reason why I blog is to track what's done and all. Therefore, I need to put down more details! -.- Self debate going on here.

Apart from all that, it has been 4 days since Addy flew off to Canada. Lucky bitch I tell you. Lol. Zimmy flew on Wed morning. It was an emotional day but besides that, I'm damn reliefed that the stressful english essay is all done with!

Hmm.. a whole week off next week. The only thing to do is assignments x10! What a live. I can only remember the last time when I really had my life was when I was in CPU. Current questions:

1. How can I be myself again?

2. Where to find the source of me being psycho once again?

3. When was the last time I was genuinely happy?

4. Why is life so miserable?!

Oh, whatever! Just gonna go with the flow. Since I was contemplating whether I should put details here earlier, I guess I would. Erm, I asked him to come back to me. Thinking about that again, I knew I wouldn't do it in a million years! But somehow this relationship made me go against what I kept to myself. Things didn't work out and I need a way to get out from this thing that I've caused. It's so often that I do not pick up his calls (either not with my Hp or something) but why did I answered that night? What if I didn't? Everything would turn out differently? Maybe not. Note to myself: Stay away from relationships! It never worked so far except the 1st one =( Reading back my diaries, every relationship disaster turned out to be on Augusts! -.- Feel like I'm jinxed or something. I will break that! ~end~

Lately

Lately so much has happened. As a result of all that has happened, I'm being pissy and my mood changes all the time. NOT COOL. Even my mum complains about all this and if only she knows =P So she is out of my list of the people who can console me. *poof*

I guess it's rather a positive thing that my parents are going off to Penang from Thursday to Sunday! Get all the noises away that seems annoying. I'm getting the house all to myself and being alone is what I need. Hopefully I shall be back to me as in ME! I'm expecting some friends over to accompany me.

Don't we all just love holidays?? Well not really already after Taylors gave it a little twist. Any public holidays that falls on weekdays shall be replaced which is decided by the lecturer itself -.- Damn lame la.. I rather not have that holiday at all! Depressing just to think of the 6 hours of classes straight. Whatever!

It's reason I'll say. "It's always a distraction. decided that I'm going to use less of Facebook from now on. If you're asking for a diplomaticing me when I do my research for the pile of assignments." If you don't believe that then you're smart. There's just nothing to it on that web anymore. What I meant is that I changed my impression for it. Bye bye "Maybelle Yeow" Hello "other acc." Lol. It has been alright, only awesome people I added. =D Hmm I had this idea, I can deactivate FB but I'm finding a way to do it on my phone too XD

Today: After class which was just 11.45am, my management group planned from yesterday already to go to this company (Hyper Tune) in Aman Suria, Damansara to interview the boss. A company that publishes their own magazines and sells car parts. Biggest assignment for that subject. Before that we (4/6) went to 1Utama for lunch and that's it. Since we finished early, everyone went home and I, went to hang in SS15. My new nerdy study place: The Web! =)

P/S: I know its so colourful for an emo post. But it helps the readers I know.